Confidence

Like the air in the sky confidence is not seen but can be felt.   John would have us just slap some Jesus on it and then we are going to make it through whatever, but we don't learn to trust Jesus in on fell swoop.  It is a consistent process every day to turn little bits over to Him and learn that He is trust worthy with whatever we have.  So why would it be any different with patching the crack in the wall, or changing the tire.   You build confidence, not buy it.  Sure there may have been pieces of confidence that our dad's in some way failed to give us, but they would not have given us the confidence to say ride a motorcycle on the freeway, because that was not one of the things they did.   Should you go buy a motorcycle and jump into Houston traffic on day one?   That would be your last day on the unforgiving streets of Houston. 
Just last week I had Jury duty.  I thought it would be at the Clay road and hwy 6 office. There was the plan for a nice cruise on the motorcycle through the back of the dam and over to do my duty. I looked at the paper right before I left and it was at 59 and Chimney Rock.  Now it was a rush to get through some of the worst of Houston traffic.  When I was riding all the time this would have been no big deal, but being the occasional rider, it was a big deal.  I did not want to go 610 by the Gallaria since that is the worst of the worst.  So I took the second worst option and went via Westhiemer.  It was time to relearn all those Houston traffic survival skills, lane placement, following distance... etc.  I had a level of concern, but I had done it before so I knew it could be done.

I don't think jumping off the edge is the way to go, learning to build the skills will get you there in one piece.  The bigger question would be "Does God become annoyed when we only trust Him with a little?"  and maybe this is an unrealistic expectation since the phrases running through my head are "Being sold out to Jesus"  "a fully devoted follower of the Cross" "Luke warm will spit you out" "fence sitter"  Yes that is the goal, but do you become that overnight?  God is pretty powerful, and I would not put it past Him to do this, but we are also made in God's image so the fear and  doubt is known to God.  Maybe we need someone to tell us the steps to get to become "fully sold out for Jesus".